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I am work. It sucks, i pretty much complain about work everyday. Its not actually that bad, its just so early in the morning and its the same shit everyday......FIle, type, enter. Screw that. A really nice man came in today and gave everyone a doughnut. Days like this make me happy. Its so sad, you would think working here causemademe like more of a peoples person, but actually i just hate people more. Especially people in the subway..the slow walkers. They truly suck. I am still freaking out about the unis cause i havent gotten an acceptance from any of them. It sucks, i should sleep with the dean and blackmail him to let me in. good idea.
Also, it was such a nice week last week and this week is shit. I am so cold, always so cold. My pants are baggy for me and its annoying because i have to wash this pants in order for them to be ok again. This is why you should always buy your own size and not a size up because they feel more confortable, because they wont be when you wear then 2 or 3 times. my god i am so tired its killing me. A women is waiting for a dermetology test and she has got some crazy pants on. THey have all these sequences and beads at the bottom its ridiculous.
I am done for now,i cant even think. i should get tea but i am gonna probably be doing that later and seriously will be wired up. AHhhh not a good sign.
Why wont u of t just fucking accept me. THey can blow me.
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| la la la |
[15 Oct 2006|10:56pm] |
i'd be lying if i said i didnt care anymore.
sucks to be me, i know i know.
also have this weird scratchy feeling at the back of my throat. its hurts and is making me cough at random times. so i should probably be doing something. but yeah i just wanted to write that down so i didnt try to kid myself and say fuck him i am so over it. the truth is i am not, and it shitty. i am gonna get wasted. ok maybe not,but i saw a lot of teenagers and the such this weekend and they are out partying later than me. WTF!!!! i am almost 18 and i dont go out half as much as they do. i think its time to change some things in my life, ie. i need to start drinking all the time. non stop. yes great new plan. my stomach aches, my gums are swolen cause of the dentist, seriously i couldnt complain anymore.
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[10 Oct 2006|08:29pm] |
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if i were a lesbian i would marry leslie feist. ok maybe i dont even have to be gay she is wonderfulllllll.
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[10 Oct 2006|06:03pm] |
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why does my life seem to suck always around my birthday. i seem to lose someone at that time...hmm myabe i am cursed cause of holloween. i wish i knew what i did at least but i guess its to late to even know that much. whatever this just sucks. it sucks when dumb things hurt this much, i mean its not even worth it but you cant control who you like right. i should probably be doing some homework or i dont know studyign for midterms? well yeah my head aches too much to do that. also i always have 3000000000 tests near my birthday. My birthday is going to suck too, its going to suck so badly i dont even want to celebrate it. i think i will sleep through it and then buy a million loterry tickets after and then win a million dollars and move to fucking paris. Yes that is what i will do. its time to leave, fo real. I dont know why i am so normal about everything thats going on maybe it hasnt hit me yet or something but god it is slowly hurting more and more. whatever fuk this shit.
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[01 Oct 2006|06:57pm] |
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WOW totally didnt know that lj changed everything. its so much harder to use and i was already confused. haha. oh man i am gonna attempt to figure stuff out again.
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| sins of yesterday |
[03 Jul 2006|02:49pm] |
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Oh god i am so over it. i am surprised that it took me this long to realize how dumb the situation is. and now he sent me an email saying his dumb girlfrined snooped around and found an email about us but the only dumb thing i have written to him was like in grade 10 drama nd he was right next to me. It was suppose to be funny. now not so much. i emailed him and told him i would be more than happy to never ben in his life again adn then yeah no reply so thats how that story ends. suck but what can i do..i am bored but i dont want to go out.
i had a walk/talk with my dad yesterday. soo weird. me and my dad never do anything togahter, but yeah so it went swell. JT is makin me listen to the new billy talent cd and its not that bad.
Gregoire called me last night told me he was coming soon so i am pumped for that.. i am bored and bored is all i have been forever...i need something new. I should become like a vegan crazy hippy, but that takes too much effort.. punk?? No it costs to much money to be a punk. So i got no options fuckkkkkkkkkkk.
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[26 Jun 2006|08:29pm] |
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what have i been doing with my life. ABSOLUTELY NOTHINGG, i dont think i have ever been this bored before. Its ridiculous. Oh god and yeah i dont know what else to saY> IAM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd
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[24 Jun 2006|12:35pm] |
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So i am bored out of my mind and i cant stop thinking about dumb things so i decided to write on livejournal. So i have so much stuff due for virtual school and i have done Nothign at all. I am so fucked. whatever since i am not going to the concert today i cant do it all up. it sucks, i really wana go to the concert. It suckss, why do tickets have to be sold out and scalpers charge so godamn much. I hate them. so i am babysitting right now and my sister is going crazy. so yeah what else to say.
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| dancing on pegs |
[13 Jun 2006|07:13pm] |
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So another day of me not studying. Really not working out for me. i should probably be killing myself with studying but i cant because i just dont care anymore. I found pants that fit me. party on dude. HAH, anyways i feel like going to shoot someone. No one in particular but i am in such a weird mood that i just hate life. AHH, tommorow is another day and i know that all i am gonna do is go to my virtual school bullshit and then just hate life more becase i am a failure. So i am going to University of Scarborough AHAH, what a joke. Well whatever, its better than another year of school right. Well the lady said i can transfer second year so thats what i am gonna do. At least i will be getting somewhere, i am sick and tired of high school and all that drama. I dont now why but i am slowly repulsed by that guy. Like when he just touches me to get my attention i want to break his hand off. oh well maybe its just me being weird. Omg i should so be studying, its still not late. I am gonna make a scheduale and madly go by it. I also have a feeling i am failing calculus. So on the test i need 100%. watch me i will do it. I just wont sleep for a week. anyways so my life is uh right now and that idiot, called me. THe other one who like didnt call me for our date and he made up an excuse and i just got sick of it. he is an idiot and if he cares he can fight for me, cause i dont care enough.
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[27 May 2006|04:43pm] |
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i am so so so so fucked. So fucked, not even funny, i dont know how my brain thinks but its in a fucked up way. Aswell the ex bestie called and was balling her eyes out and when i asked her what happened she was just like we got into a fight and i knew that she was talking bullshit because she wouldnt be crying. Then he was like tell her what you did and she was like should i also tell her what you did and he is like yeah tell her, and then thirty seconds later he is like dont tell her anything, get off the phone, its nobodies bussiness dont tell her anything. ANd she hung up. What the fuck is wrong with her. seriously if she doesnt break up with him and if he did something very bad(i have many ideas in my head) then i am going to tell her to never call me again because i have no respect for a slut that doesnt have respect for her self. anyways, i am still fucked about my situation. Hopefully it blows over but i am doubting. Getting so trashed tonight, maybe then i will forget. Fuck
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[17 May 2006|09:05pm] |
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Danielle won!!! for americas next top model i am so happy i wanted her to win so badly it i totally thought she wouldnt.. So i am babysitting and doing nothing at all. i am so bored and the little one is trying to make a trampoline out of something. Anyways i fell asleep today and woke up still feeling like shit. I dont know whats wrong with me but i always feeled drained. like extremely drained out of ma mind. HAha. i had so much hot chocolate. I awnt to draw again. i feel like i suck at drawing though so i never want to do it cause i worried i will put too much time into soething and it will look like shit; So yeah thats about all i have to say
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| promster |
[12 May 2006|09:11am] |
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so today is prom and i am totally not looking forward to it. i know it will be fun but still i feel lazy and might leave right after prom to go home. we will see. either way yeahhh
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[06 May 2006|11:45pm] |
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So i just saw spare parts, some slovenian movie, it was part of the film festival. My god it was amazing. it wasnt even that like hard to take, it was really well done i iked it a lot. Acutally i loved it and i fell in love with one of theguys. his name is aljosa kovacic. Yeah he was hot except you can hardly get anything on him because he is slovanian. I want him ahaha. Much like i wanted kevin zeggers, shit i dont think i even spelt his name right. either way i dont know what to do with my time and i should be madly doing my homeowrk. So for now thats it. Adioss mochacho
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| too many lovers in a lifetime aint good for you |
[03 May 2006|06:19pm] |
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So i am dying from laughing. My god so basically there is this guy and we have a weird past and today he told me that he could tell i wanted him so much and that i am trying so hard to restrain myself. I asked how he knew and he said he could see it through my eyes. First of all i dont even like consider this guy a frined anymore and i cant believe he is psychic. HAHAH notice how i cant even spell. But who says that. If i liked him i would have told him a week ago when he was telling me some things, but hey i dont and never willlll. Oh lord, prom is soon i am freaking out my aunt is like not doing my dress and i am worried it will be too latee and she wont be finsihed it time. Fuck her, i am going to buy a dress this weekend. IT may just be a backup dress but hey what can you do:D:D. Neways i am going to leave. "i can see it in your eyes"! hHAAH kilss me everytime
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| spectacular spectacular |
[02 May 2006|03:28pm] |
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So i am bored as hell and i skipped the whole day of school, partly becuasei had to do makeup but hey makeup doesnt last the whole day does it? I am so bored and obssessed with moulan rouge. I have just about listened to every song. i want to download the last song they sing togahter but i forget what it was. Anyways life is SHITYY and basically i am freakingout about nothing, but really is hould be crying about everything..Anywaysss back to musiq.
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[01 May 2006|09:27pm] |
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I am seriously so depressed its not even funny. I decided to read the news and well the sudan crisis hit me. i decided to search more into it and well i started to cry, I dont thik i have ever seen such sad music. I swear if i were a millioner or a billioner i would give all my money to try and help these people. This isnt even funny. I really recommend peopl research this and see what is gonig on and realize we live in heaven. Actually how could i even say heaven, there is no FUCING God. Religious groups make me so mad cause how can you justify a god when things like this are constantly happening in the world. Oh my, i dont htink i am going to sleep tonight. those pictures just killed me...Really i recomend everyone to look at the news and read up on sudan i am sure you will feel the pain..
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| Cheemmm can kill me |
[12 Apr 2006|09:17pm] |
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I am waiting forrrr the nextt veronica mars i am so pumped, last weeks was amazingg, anywho, i hate school and am so worried i wont get into uni. i have a giant lab due tommorow and guess what i am wasting my time doing NOTHIGNGGG. oh lordi am dumbbb anyways i am going to go attemp my freaking chem lab, adiosss
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| i am going to die |
[18 Feb 2006|11:44pm] |
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i feel so sick and i basically have spent this whole night watching veronica mars and am quite pissed the new oneisnt coming out till april 05 or something, thats ridiculous. i feel like i am going to die and its killing meeee..
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| i am bored although i should be writing my story |
[15 Feb 2006|08:56pm] |
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| You're a Freaky Kisser | 
When you kiss, you want to experience something new
A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing...
And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable
There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go |
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[22 Jan 2006|09:05pm] |
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So last nighti had this really weird dream. My weekened has been shitty but in the end i had a dream and this is how it went. my father, my sister and i happened to go to queens university to check it out and drop off my sister for some obscure reason. i think we were dropping off my sister to meet her frined and for me to see how it is. so we are in this line up and basically my sister meets her friend and her and my dad leave. I turn around and notice that devin is there, so i am like hi, and his paretns say bye to him and we walk. He tells me how excited he is about uni and that i should come check out hisroom. We get in the elivator and go to his room. ALso what you have to take into consideration is that this university is like a lodge, its all wooden and people are snowboarding and shit. So basically we get in the elivator and i tell him i misshim and he kisses me. we get to his room and drop off everything. we are walking hand in hand and thhen we get to the cafeteria and we sit on opposite sides of the table but there are 2 toher people with us and we are so confused. And then some random guy that went to our schoollast year that i never talked to screams at me and is like arent youdatingmy friend and i was like hell no who areyou,and then these two other guys are like waiti asked you outin grade 12 and you said yes and then never calledmeabck. Sobasically i am like ok you are all fucked up and then me and dev leave and then we get in a car and then we go to some random store thats apparently the shit and then i get out and we go to the sotre and then my dad calls and he is like i will pick you up in four days me and your mom dont want you home and i am like what what did i do and they wont tell me and dev is like see this is why i broke up with you, you never told me anything, you always hid it from me. ANd then i woke up...weird eh? yeah i think sooooo
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